It’s been a long while since I last posted but I thought it might feel good to get this out of my system. I really can’t stand having discussions with a friend of mine. Even conversations that I have in jest, he will take it seriously and give his “almighty” opinions.
The worst part is, he keeps insisting his opinion is always right, regardless of any topic under the sun. To the point where I really don’t like to talk to him about anything.
Guess that’s what I really wanted to say.
How long has it been since I blogged?
Been too busy trying to get my life back. Work, PR (by the way, applied for PR for my gf last Friday), trying to recuperate from injuries and squeezing in exercises (of which I can really only swim now and that’s more time consuming than running).
Been too busy thinking about getting my OWN life. I really want to get out of this family. Not that I hate them, but I don’t particularly feel any love in it. I somehow have seemed to have grown up with the mentality that my family wants me out. And out I shall go. It’s sad to think this way, but feelings and impressions are relative. You can guess, another round of BS happened this morning, and I told my mum I don’t feel that I’m being treated fairly. Of course you can guess what she had said, but seriously, there’s no point in having that conversation. That’s what I told her since she’d never really understand how I feel and it’d just end up in an argument or endless debate. I just said I’m used to it and just going to live my own life. Period.
And it boils down to that brother of mine again. Whatever lah. I can’t give 2 cents worth of a floppy fuck about him. Perhaps it’s a one sided view but putting together what I know about him, がっかりした.
Anyway, whatever. I don’t want to care anymore how my parents are going to treat me or them. I’ll just do what I need to do to keep my own conscience clear, get my own place and move out and keep it that way.
