Today I had a rather heart to heart talk with one of my project managers. For some reason, we both managed to find time for coffee out of our hectic schedules.
Or perhaps, it was a rare chance that it was only the two of us. He too had wanted some opinions from me. As we shared our woes, I began to realise and learn more about my own predicament.
By predicament, I really meant my current situation at work. At this point in time, I can’t help but feel that I am in some ways being abused. A year ago, everything would seem like an opportunity and I would charge in with all my energy and enthusiasm.
Now I wonder whether if I would get anything in return in the end. I can’t help but feel that there’s nothing in store for me at the end of the road and that I am nothing more than an easily manipulatable pawn in the bigger picture of things.
Yet at the same time, I am also fully aware that I am expected to take charge of my career, aspirations and goals within my company. So does this mean I need to explicitly tell my manager where I want to be?
Apparently so, as advised by my project manager. I need to be straight forward and decisive on what I want and express this clearly to my manager.
Decisiveness. Hmmmm, something that for some reason I do not have currently especially in terms of my job.
Anyway, it’s another item that I need to think about, adding on to the already troubling amounts of stuff that’s already on my mind (and my nearly 1MB To-Do spreadsheet list)
