Tonight I feel Empowered

7 12 2006

Nothing much really. But I spent 2 hours in Suntec MacDonalds, writing a story. I had said I written an awesome story in a previous post, but the next day to that, I looked through that story, and honestly, it wasn’t impressive.

And today, I rewrote the whole thing from scratch again, and this time, I feel awed myself. It was most definitely a very great story, at least to me. Perhaps one day I will post it up. Not yet, not yet.

I’m already away in my fantasy world as I’m writing this, still floating around in my story. I never really felt like this before, such immersion into a story I wrote…..

Right, off to Bala!





Where’s My Hunny?

7 12 2006

My friend left for DA STATES yesterday, and now I have no one to bitch to on msn during work. HUNNY I MISS YOU ALREADY!

ZZZzzzzzzz





Fragile Things

7 12 2006

I really gotta love Neil Gaiman. His books are simply amazing. I’m currently reading Fragile Things. It’s his latest book and it’s simply amazing on some of the stuff he writes in there.

Already, in his prologue to the book, the things he wrote struck through my heart.

Fragile things… fragile things… how apt. The whole book was well written, well laid out. So very apt….

The stories may be too deep sometimes, but it’s well worth the read. He uses the “Nevermore!” reference again from Poe in one of his stories in there. I couldn’t help by be rather amused by that. And many a time, you can catch me smirking, laughing, shaking my head as I immersed myself into the magical world of Neil Gaiman. I swear, as I was reading today, I saw two hands reach out and dug into my head, kneading my mind and it shaped what I thought of reality into the wonderful land of stories…

I feel so compelled to write up my awesome story further. I’m still considering if I should post my Christmas Story up, or wait till the results are out.

Then why do I bother so much? Everything is … … so fragile.





Dreams.

7 12 2006

I had a dream last night:

My ex was going through a rather difficult period though I could not remember why. And the scene was me coaxing her to sleep, and then leaving her room. Then I saw her parents and we chatted a little. It was largely words of thanks and gratitude, or something like that. Then that was about it.

The dream and the interupting sms through only 4 hours of sleep is making me a rather lethargic and mindless zombie today.

I suddenly miss my grandfather.





Zouk-Out

7 12 2006

In the end, due to a rather good response from my friends, I’m also going to join in for Zouk-Out. But I’ll probably not stay too late… zzzz, just the thought of the things I have to do turns me off.

Zouk Out Logo

Anyway, welcome anyone to drop me a message that day if you are there.





A Belated Long Today

7 12 2006

Today had been a long day.

Finally got down to meeting the client and ironed out quite a number of details which inadvertently led to more work. Now that’s worrying.

“How long do you need to get it done? How about 2 weeks?” she had asked.

“I can’t do it in 2 weeks. I have to get it done in 1.” I replied.

Silence.

Who would have thought that given 2 weeks, I had said one.

She was shocked… and she said, “Well, if you can do it in one week that’s fine. I’ll still give you two weeks.”

“That’s ‘cause after next week, I’m on leave.”

So that’s a shit load of work to be done. And it didn’t help that this weekend would be pretty much burned because of the company’s family day on Saturday. Then a primary school class gathering in the evening. I had to turn down an free ticket to Zouk-Out.

Not that I’d like to go anyway.

So other than the godsend sms and a call from a friend, it was really quite a dreary meeting with only more and more action items being added under my name. How fun! I feel some value LOL.

Had a quick lunch of two CPs and LMK (Curry Puff and Lo Mai Kai) with my manager who happened to be there, and discussed with him all the work issues. Hope he got my hint that my leave was coming up and I don’t really have the time to complete a lot of things that were up and coming. HINT.

From 5 onwards, I was working with a 40 year old colleague on some documents. He strongly encouraged me to take a 5 minute break at about 7:30pm. It turned out to be a 45 minute break or more. Make it about an hour. We talked about many things which enlightened me about work, life and golf in general. He gave really good insight to the company and at the same time gave me a lot of advice on how I should take the work coming my way to enhance my value. Being a married man, he sure made it sound I was living the good life of being single. And then followed a lot of talk on golf, which made me itching to head down to the range to fire off a million wimpy balls again.
Then my back gave me a rather not too gentle reminder that I shouldn’t.

Hitching a ride on my colleague’s cab (it was easier for him to claim cab fare), I decided to head down to Holland instead and dropped off at Buona Vista MRT and while I was walking there, all that we had talked went through my head.

I feel like a server defragging and backing up at the end of the day. Occupational hazard/habit/conditioning/something. Was having this conversation with a friend on msn regarding this “Occupational thing”. We couldn’t conclude what’s the right word to use. But it was regarding how work slowly invades your life and you start living life with the nuances of work flirting around here and there. Due to my exposure of the word “incident” of late, I went “incidentally” when I really wanted to say “coincidentally” instead.

Ok, so there wasn’t any escape of the talk of relationship issues today either; I had deliberately leave it to the end in hopes that nobody would want to read this after the long post in front. There’s no denying that many of my friends are already sick of listening to such things. But I was chatting with my friend on msn and we were discussing about her own relationship with her boyfriend. The analogy I gave her was: Liang Teh is bitter to drink, you can choose to drink it in one gulp or slowly sip it up. There’s no right or wrong way, just that any method chosen is really a personal choice. I don’t deny that the things I had said to her sort of pushed her to think about it, but given the way I am, it’s either a danger to talk to me or a boon. Oh well. Let’s not dwell anymore.