I Hope that I don’t fall in Love with you

5 11 2006

Had this song on my iPod for quite some time, but never really paid attention to the lyrics. It has a nice tune and I did some research. Seems like it was Tom Waits who first did it in 1973 on his album “Closing Time”. I heard a short 30 sec preview of Tom Waits version on iTunes and I think he did it awesome. I guess only Tom and Hootie has the kind of voice for this. Fits the whole song perfectly. The rest of the covers didn’t feel right.

Anyway, found only 3 good youtube videos for this song, decided to choose this one cos the gal’s kinda cute, with a rather nice voice too.

I Hope that I don’t Fall in Love with You 
Original by Tom Waits 

Well I hope that I don’t fall in love with you
cause falling in love just makes me blue,
Well the music plays and you display
Your heart for me to see,
I had a beer and now I hear you
Calling out for me
And I hope that I don’t fall in love with you.

Well the room is crowded, people everywhere
And I wonder, should I offer you a chair?
Well if you sit down with this old clown,
Take that frown and break it,
Before the evenings gone away,
I think that we could make it,
And I hope that I don’t fall in love with you.

Well the night does funny things inside a man
These old tom-cat feelings you don’t understand,
Well I turn around to look at you,
You light a cigarette,
I wish I had the guts to bum one,
But we’ve never met,
And I hope that I don’t fall in love with you.

I can see that you are lonesome just like me,
And it being late, you’d like some some company,
Well I turn around to look at you,
And you look back at me,
The guy you’re with has up and split,
The chair next to you’s free,
And I hope that you don’t fall in love with me.

Now it’s closing time, the music’s fading out
Last call for drinks, I’ll have another stout.
Well I turn around to look at you,
You’re nowhere to be found,
I search the place for your lost face,
Guess I’ll have another round
And I think that I just fell in love with you.





Releasing my first secret

5 11 2006

My first secret. Probably the only I’ll post. Been looking at this post which I had kept as a draft for about a week. I did say I would ponder about posting it, and I decided to. Feels good:

I wish we had never met that night, or at least you remained sober.
I wish you didn’t say you were sorry, and didn’t tell me how you felt about the things I did, things which I felt stupid about.
For every single word you said that night, you melted my rock solid heart into hot molten lava, burning me up inside like a new found passion.
For every tear you shed that night, it fell like glittering diamonds, so beautiful that I wanted to pick them up and keep them for you.
For every hug you gave, I felt I could let everything go and let love lead me blind again.
For every ideal you had, it burned deep into my mind and it made me want to materialise them all for you.
For everything that had happened, you made me realise that it was something which I have never gotten over. You were the door that I have shut and forgotten. One that I chose to forget than to accept, the biggest room in the house which I chose to lock the ghosts out.
I thought I had rationalise my entire life, and I thought I could control everything. Now I’m being pulled apart, my rationality cannot hold for long. I think so much now, too much. I can’t read to distract myself, I can’t play with attention.
I curse and swear at myself, my rationality’s last ditch effort to pull me from my grave, from certain death. That night shouldn’t have happened. It was the sweetest night I could ever have, to have seen you at your most beautiful moment. The days after were the drought, the parched desert, the dry fields. In all your innocence, you did it to me again. I can’t believe I had let it happen, I feel stupid again. Are you going to be sorry again? In all your drunken innocence, you picked me sky high, and now I’m falling, waiting for the on rushing ground to smack me.





Glorious Sunday

5 11 2006

This Sunday morning was simply beautiful. Firstly, I woke up rather early for a weekend. Immediately after sitting up in bed, I saw a stirkingly beautiful bird in the distance. I got the urge to head out for breakfast and then head down to the driving range.

Instead, I took a look at the papers and read more interesting things. About a rather good looking 42 year old millionaire who could not find a date despite the different dating agencies she went to. What are the men thinking … weird elaborate plans started flying through my head LOL. I think it would make a great story.

I read Tan Hsueh Yun’s “Yes, I’m trying hard to say ‘No’”, and it was insightful. It was a stark reminder to myself that perhaps I should really learn to not please everyone sometimes.

Rememeber, your happiness is your responsibility, too.

How true. Coincidentally, I stopped by my horroscope:

Raise your self-esteem by saying no to a person who constantly bullies you into doing something you don’t want to. Then raise the stakes further by saying yes to something new that you’ve always wanted to try.

Then I thought about who was bullying me now, which was kind of funny. I thought it was always me bullying people. Then someone came to mind, but that’s not really bullying I thought, but it sure was funny.

It’s amazing so much can happen in one morning.





Frank Sinatra Cycles

5 11 2006

I was talking to a friend today, about Frank Sinatra songs and I forgot to mention this one, which is really quite emo, but Frankie’s my friend, so I’m posting this for Frankie.  

(omg, can’t find a youtube video!)

Frank Sinata – Cycles

So I’m down and so I’m out
But so are many others
So I feel like tryin’ to hide
My head ‘neath these covers
Life is like the seasons
After winter comes the spring
So I’ll keep this smile awhile
And see what tomorrow brings
I’ve been told and I believe
That life is meant for livin’
And even when my chips are low
There’s still some left for givin’
I’ve been many places
Maybe not as far as you
So I think I’ll stay awhile
And see if some dreams come true
There isn’t much that I have learned
Through all my foolish years
Except that life keeps runnin’ in cycles
First there’s laughter, then those tears
But I’ll keep my head up high
Although I’m kinda tired
My gal just up and left last week
Friday I got fired
You know it’s almost funny
But things can’t get worse than now
So I’ll keep on tryin’ to sing
But please, just don’t ask me how





Curbing Attrition

5 11 2006

“Wha your new story is really tldr”

“What’s tldr?”

“Too Long Didn’t Read”

“LOL”

So how? Made me ponder whether I have been chasing readers away lol. A friend commented I should write short stories like this one. I thought posting alot would keep readers coming back for new content. I also thought my life was boring so I posted stories. Hmm. I realised I asked for comments and suggestions and there weren’t any. Yet I know some people do read my blog, but at the same time, I don’t know who. Now my blog’s a mess. Ok, just a guide, people if you wanna read about my life, just go straight to “The Daily Papers” category. “Life Musings” is for random thoughts and stories. “Waxing Lyrical” is of course for songs. You might find some posts in both the “The Daily Papers” and “Life Musings”, so, some of these stories are really about me :)





Hope, hopeful, hopeless.

5 11 2006

“I wish I had powers like that”

And immediately after, I thought about the word hope instead.

I guess my friend was right. Hope instills negativity in you. I guess you hope for something when you know you can never get it. And hope really fucks alot of people up.

I’m now currently learning not to hope too much. It’s only Eh Sai or Buey Sai. Simple.





Facing the Demons

5 11 2006

He stood there in the last moments of the onslaught. As the darkness over the horizon steadily grew darker and bigger, the morning sun began to lose its shine over the land. The dewdrops became lack-lustre diamonds, the once bright green grass became a dull color of wilt and decay and the air became a stale stench of death and hopelessness.

He stood there, knowing that the time of enjoyment and bliss is over. No longer did he think that the land had anything to offer; Solace doesn’t exist here anymore; It would only come after this fight in which death was certain. Death was guaranteed.

He felt naked suddenly, and a tear fell from his face. Despite the armour of mail and chain, despite the gigantic tower shield he held, despite the claymore in his heavily chained right hand, he felt naked. It could be because he stood alone, or it could be the confusion that sets in by the thought of facing the incoming demons. Whatever it was, it wasn’t the time to sort that thought out. All he had left to do before the final clash, was to pray. And pray he did. He closed his eyes, blinking out the last tear drop, clearing the window to his soul and prayed like he never did before.

To every single god, he prayed. To the brave and the meek; to the lust and the love; to the war and the peace; to the night and the day; to the skies and the earth; to the music and the wine; to the sad and the lonely and most of all, to life and death. He prayed in silence, yet his prayers were louder than the deafening roar of the encroaching darkness over the horizon. So loud that every god in the pantheon could hear his last prayers, even gods from the most distant reaches of the world. And at that moment, every trace of fear left his body, and even death was on his side.

He raised his sword towards the sky, catching the last ray of sunlight that filtered through, and it illuminated all around him. It filled him with a brightness that radiated out from him, so bright that the armour seemed to turn molten red. He trembled at the power that coursed through him, a power that resonated every cell in his body. He heard a loud buzzing in his head that wiped out every other thought in his head. The buzz filled his mind with a message which he swore he heard

Face your demons. Face your demons. Face your demons …

Completely empowered, he charged. He ran like no man could ever run. He ran as though his armour were weightless. He ran without any restrictions. His steps left heavy foot prints into the earth, yet he felt he was running on air. He ran, and he ran without fear. He let loose a battle cry that resounded through the land and the valleys, a battle cry that would calm an innocent infant’s wail yet strike the worst fears in the guilty, a battle cry that would cure the deaf yet deafen the hearing. And with that cry, he clashed into the demons.

He slashed and stabbed with all his might, his unending might. He pommeled and slapped with all his strength, strength of a thousand gods. He parried, blocked and dodged. He fought like the god of war himself, and he moved like the god of water. He fought like a dance that would put the god of wine to shame, and the clashes of steel against steel played a song so mournfully beautiful that the god of song could never sing.

But he took his share of pain. He braved the stings of scorpions and the bites of snakes. He grimaced through every punch, kick and the powerful whip of demon tails. He tore his eyes open for every dust blown into his eyes. He fought on through all the bruises and broken bones, slashes and stabs.

By the time was high in the sky, the darkness no longer blanketed the land. The land was littered with the disintegrating bodies of slain demons. Every single one was killed, every single one was served to death. And as the last dying demons slowly disintegrated, the wind scattering their ashes over the blood stained earth, only one person remained standing. He stood there covered in demon slime and acid blood. His armour was torn and tattered as if it had been nothing more than a rag. His once brilliant claymore now chipped and cracked; its tip was broken. He lost his shield somewhere, which he had thrown after it was cleaved in half. Underneath it all, he suffered wounds no human could survive. He was stabbed a hundred times, and a hundred times more. The cuts ran all over his body like runic tattoos; They had all stopped bleeding, for he was already dry. His fair skin now bruised and black all over. His lips were swollen ugly and split. And as the last ash was blown away, the glow of life surrounding him started to wane as the gods left his body.

He smiled that this battle was fought and he was the one who fought it. His eye glittered as he saw the god of death left his body, who waited to be the last, and pulled on his valiant soul along. And as his eyes fluttered shut, he saw himself walking side by side with death, among a row of valkyries to the glorious pantheon.