A Different Starbucks Day

4 11 2006

Spent the day giving tuition and then heading down to the gym for a good run. It’s been a while since I ran, I guess that’s why I’m feeling sleepy as I’m writing this in my favourite usual Starbucks. Not exactly usual, but it was a Starbucks nonetheless.

Perhaps the lack of proper sleep, tuition and the running left me sitting on the benches in the gym pretty much, thinking and thinking. Or dreaming. I couldn’t tell. I didn’t have paper to write what came through my head at that time. I doubted that would help anyway, I probably couldn’t write faster than I could think. Hmm …. maybe a voice recorder…..

Anyway, stories and thoughts flew through my head. I had a few good ideas, but I think I lost them all. So that’s making me kind of pissed. Oh hell, I’m just going to enjoy my coffee.





The Beautiful Code

4 11 2006

The waiter had a long day. It didn’t end yet really. More like half a day had gone by only. But he had a long day already. It was really a long day because he had been waiting for this time of the day, when he would have his lunch. He had waited every second to pass by. He had literally counted every second.

“Would you like to have toppings on your potatoes?”

“Bacon only.”

45 … 46 … 47 … He served the topping, gently scooping those crispy, red bits onto the potato. Say please at least … 56 … 57 … 58 …

“Enjoy your meal maam.”

60 … another minute … 1… 2 … 3… 4…

Each second seemed like an eternity. More than an eternity in fact. That next minute was taking too damn long. It was nibbling at him like a hamster gnawing its way out of a cage. It kind of hurt actually. Each second, the hamster sunk its teeth deeper. Each minute the hamster removed another piece.

He made it through the ordeal of half a day. Sure it was nothing compared to many other things, but it was bad enough having to count and serve pompous customers at the same time. He scurried over to the staff canteen and gobbled down his meal. He didn’t even know what he ate, it was always some unusual fare that any more thought spared on it could make you think otherwise about being hungry.

Still gobbling a mouthful, he returned his tray and dashed off to the pay phone.

No queue please … please … please …

He was third in line when he got there. Fuck.

The minutes started counting in his head again. Or rather, the seconds. He swore he was counting down to the milliseconds. At times, he was pretty sure time stood still to make a mockery of him. He tried to shake these thoughts out of his head, and dug out a piece of neatly folded paper from his pocket. It was his like his little bible which he would go through over and over again. On it was written nothing more than a bunch of code-like numbers. It was a long string, but still, they were just numbers.

Honestly, he didn’t need that paper anymore; he had already memorised those numbers by heart. Everyday, he would have seen these numbers at this moment, and for uncountable days now, these numbers have been his prayer.

When it got to his turn, he fumbled for ten cents and plonked it into the slot. He punched the numbers on the keypad. Punch, punch, punch. Each punch in angst and agony for the day’s waiting. Each punch was filled with the pent up emotions of the day. Emotions. Yeah, each punch was filled with emotions. The emotions that were all held back for months. The emotions that chained him down to a tonne of lead. The feelings of emotions that he had to surpress, for reasons he didn’t know why.

Punch, punch, punch.

In a minute, it was done. In a minute, a minute that he had patiently waited the whole morning for, all the emotions he held coursed through his body. It ran every length of his veins; it ran through every strand of hair; it ran through his soul. It sent the chilliest shiver down his spine, yet he was feeling extremely warm, almost too hot in his chest.

With a wide smile, he kept that paper neatly back in his pocket and walked back to work. Just another minute, in another day. There’s nothing more than tomorrow’s minute to look forward to …

1 … 2 … 3 … 4 …





Love’s Been Good To Me

4 11 2006

And this is the second song that came to my mind. It suddenly touched my heart so and I’ve been humming it since.

Frank Sinatra – Love’s been good to me 

I have been a rover
I have walked alone
Hiked a hundred highways
Never found a home
Still in all I’m happy
The reason is, you see
Once in a while along the way
Love’s been good to me

There was a girl in Denver
Before the summer storm
Oh, her eyes were tender
Oh, her arms were warm
And she could smile away the thunder
Kiss away the rain
Even though she’s gone away
You won’t hear me complain

I have been a rover
I have walked alone
Hiked a hundred highways
Never found a home
Still in all I’m happy
The reason is, you see
Once in a while along the way
Love’s been good to me

There was a girl in Portland
Before the winter chill
We used to go a-courtin’
Along October hill
And she could laugh away the dark clouds
Cry away the snow
It seems like only yesterday
As down the road I go

I’ve been a rover
I have walked alone
Hiked a hundred highways
Never found a home
Still in all I’m happy
The reason is, you see
Once in a while along the way
Love’s been good to me





Fly Me To The Moon

4 11 2006

This song was one of my favourite Frankie songs, and I had it in my head for quite sometime back when I was with my ex. It was easy to sing, easy to remember for it’s short lyrics, catchy tune and simple message.

Recently, a friend D brought it up again and we sang it. And even more recent, another friend asked me about it, which reminds me I have yet to pass her the song. Mental note to self: Rememeber to pass her the song, probably via email.

Anyway, here it is (The lyrics are slightly different since the video was a live performance):

This one is from the album, sounds better in my opinion.

Frank Sinatra – Fly Me To The Moon

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On a-Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby, kiss me

Fill my heart with song
And let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you





Oh Happy Day

4 11 2006

Tonight has been a great night.

Firstly, I had a great time at my friend’s restaurant, enjoying free food, which was FANTASTIC. Olive Bistro in International Business Park at the Nordic European Center. Go patronise it. They bake really awesome pies. I’ll try to post up the actual address. They got an awesome dinner menu for the X’mas season. I wrote a story there too, and for that I’m happy. I shall post it tomorrow.

Secondly, I had a great golfing day. Save my hurting back (Yes, I still played despite my back), I got really good Driver shots today.

Thirdly, my ex still cares about me and for that I’m happy. But I can feel that she still thinks I always think badly of her and that I can’t get over her. But still, she sms’ed me asking if I was fine regarding my earlier post on being fucked. For that, I will bring her to dinner one day, if she’s fine with it.

Fourthly, I decided to let my secret out. I saw a friend on msn, and I guess I had two options, go crazy and die keeping the secret, or let it out and feel good about it. So I just messaged her and let it all out. For that, I’m happy. And she gave me really awesome advice, advice that never crossed my mind and cleared up my head. I don’t feel fucked anymore.

Lastly, today, I clarified things with a girl, whom I suspect I may be hurting because I was overly friendly. And we are going to be friends (I hope), and I will owe her a dinner on that one too.

So I went out (also to get that story I had written which I left in the car) and took a smoke. And it wasn’t haze, it was like a celebratory smoke. And while smoking, I decided too, I should just post some of the 6 posts I had kept. Though the problem is they are backdated, so they won’t appear at the top unless I edit the time stamp. Which would make the post lose it’s continuity. I’ll ponder about that one, but I’ll post it. And in the course of the whole day’s event, 2 songs came to mind which I will post consecutively after this.

I could just die in peace already lol.